My Death & you...

would you miss me if i died tomorrow?

would you think about me everyday until you finally accept my death?

would you forget about me right after the time of morning passes?

what if i didnt really died, but instead was set up and looked different, i spent time with you; without telling you im not the person you think i am but the person that was supposedly close to you that no longer is living?

what if i by some miracle i survived but at the cost of not only my identity but everyone not believing i am who i say i am.

i would feel betrayed by the supposed people that once cared and loved me so. I would loath them to no end that they probably would speak of me so illy, that they would refuse to speak of me and they do they are quick to retreat from the conversation as if my name be that of taboo.

would you miss me if i died tomorrow?

would you think about me everyday until you finally accept my death?

would you forget about me right after the time of morning passes?

what if i didnt really died, but instead was set up and looked different, i spent time with you; without telling you im not the person you think i am but the person that was supposedly close to you that no longer is living?

what if i by some miracle i survived but at the cost of not only my identity but everyone not believing i am who i say i am.

i would feel betrayed by the supposed people that once cared and loved me so. I would loath them to no end that they probably would speak of me so illy, that they would refuse to speak of me and they do they are quick to retreat from the conversation as if my name be that of taboo.

Hana Bay poem

Hana Bay Beach

The warm sun kisses the water while it dances into a sunset.

The water blushes when the sun pecks it,

The ocean shares a beautiful smile and swallows people into it's,

calm soothing water.

The sand is so mellow and soft when you lie on it,

it messages you into a mid-day nap.

The trees whisper secrets from the past.

They tell you stories that no one else knows,

But they will only tell you if you're willing to listen.

As the trees tell you stories,

The wind brushes your cheeks with it's fingertips.

Hana Bay beach is more then just a beach,

It's a magical wonder.

All you have to do is pay close attention.

Love...

I Loved you but i never told you

I wanted to confess and tell you how i felt.

I was afraid that you wouldn't feel the same way, So i said nothing.

You told me how you felt.

I thought it was a joke, so i didn't respond.

I regret not telling you then.

Now that i tell you,

you don't respond, you just walk away.

Time passes by.

I still love you but i won't say it out loud, 'cause if i do

the memories of you will come back.

I'll cry and flood the world.

I want to forget you but I can't.

I want to stop loving you but i can't.

I wish we never have met, but then I would have missed out on the wonderful times we had.

I will always miss you

I will always love you

I will despise the pain you made me feel

I will adore how you made me realize love does exist. . .

yeah i was listening to music and for some reason i stared writing this o.o

i think it turned out pretty well ^^"

even the hand written version im surprized it was readable since i wrote it with my left hand o.O ^^"

i personally love it! ...sortof >.> i wanted to write more but i just got irratated with my left hand writing slow so i just gave up and wrote this with VERY little detail as i would of liked it to have -.-"

So yeah another original by ...ME! ^^

-C-

'good bye for now' up close? dont strain ur eyes!

in case u dont wanna strain your eyes reading the poem called "Good bye for now"
this is what is writen in it? on it? with it? idk but this is what it say's:

it's only 'Good-bye' for now soon

we'll meet again.

Remember that juast as you will

remember our friendship &

memories together.

Yes, i will miss you too,very much.

But how can i leave if i don't know

you'll be okay with me

leaving. Leaving to experience the

world a lot better. But when i

return i'll tell you all about my

adventures. . .

-Claud-

yeah i made this cause im gonna miss my besties! D'x of course this is an original i dont think theirs another person out der who wrote the EXACT same thing cuz if they did O.o tht would b weird .

oh & if i took the 'poem' down then u probably have no french toasting idea what im talking about ^^" hehe!

Last Day of school T^T

well today was the last day of school it wasnt so bad.At least at first but toward the ending of the day after our school dance we ate.let's just say wat we ate isnt & probably would never be approved by the doctor. but dont tell them!^^"The only thing 'healthy' we ate was probably spaggetie (sp.?) xD me & my BFF got so sick wit all da sweets. ^^

i still remember playing cards wit her ahh crazy eights we never got to play tht game wit the rest of our gang (by gang i mean group^^" no gangs here! thank God!)
we also cleaned up.

but after that it was around 12:47 & everyone started huging & crying T^T at first i was like 'Ok?' but after a while i knoticed i should be one of thoughs ppl crying im the one tht will probably never get to c them! O.O so yeah i started crying my friend also cryed T^T how sweet she will always b my bestie! i think i cryed like . . . wait hold on let me just remember! i got this! i think i cryed around 16 times including the rid home .but not thoughs full on tears more like just tears that i cant hold.

=(

just remembering makes me wanna cry.

but my point is never forget the moments u have wit ur besties cause i never will ill never forget them even though it took me around maybe 7 years or 10 to find them cause once u kno tht u'll move & ur not sure wether u'll c them again it gets depressing. Treat everyone wit respect cause u dont kno if that will b the last day ull ever c dem.

yeah i kno this blog mayb cheesy or blahh! but i dont care!!! cause no matter what ppl say this is my life & these r my feelings no matter wat u say it wont change. unless my dad says were not moving to New Jersey thn i care bout tht! I DONT WANNA LEAVE HAWAII!!!

Wensday,May 2010, 26

-C.A.-